http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/ en Sat, 21 Nov 2009 11:49:18 GMT Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:52:56 GMT http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss vBlogetin craig@fencing.net craig@fencing.net http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-scared-to-death-7289/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:52:56 GMT that about sums it up. Iam afraid to go to sleep for not waking up.

This one has hit harder than the rest and It just seems so easy to give in to it. Sometimes I can barely stand up (good thing I'm a chair fencer now) and I am always so tired. I am not seeing improvement. I will have to ask Robin if she has noticed if I have.

I just dwell on my doctor telling me "if you read between the lines of what they said in PHX it is the beginning of the end" I just have to wait to hear from my DR at Barrow to see if I am even a candidate for surgery and that may kill me. Thank you everyone.]]> Greybeard http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-scared-to-death-7289/ http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-scared-to-death-7288/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:52:54 GMT that about sums it up. Iam afraid to go to sleep for not waking up.

This one has hit harder than the rest and It just seems so easy to give in to it. Sometimes I can barely stand up (good thing I'm a chair fencer now) and I am always so tired. I am not seeing improvement. I will have to ask Robin if she has noticed if I have.

I just dwell on my doctor telling me "if you read between the lines of what they said in PHX it is the beginning of the end" I just have to wait to hear from my DR at Barrow to see if I am even a candidate for surgery and that may kill me. Thank you everyone.]]> Greybeard http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-scared-to-death-7288/ http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/so-now-what-7274/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 18:17:56 GMT Apparently I will continue to have strokes/seizures and most likely plateau at a lower level each time until I finally croak. He is going to send a letter to my surgeon describing how I am right now to see what his opinion is. If there is a chance I could survive another craniotomy I will probably have it done. I hate the way I am now. I am wondering if I will fence once more.


We have weekend that is all boys all the time and I just can't roll on the floor like I used too. My playtime with them has drastically changed. There are just some things I can't do any longer that require strength, of which I have none.


All I know is I have to fence again and I am going to. You should see the slobber as well am paying the boys back big time. Thank you guys for being such good friends.]]> Greybeard http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/so-now-what-7274/ http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/an-open-note-to-my-friends-7259/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:04:45 GMT To all my friends You all how I have been struggling lately with my health. I have gotten to the point where I am afraid to go asleep now for fear of not waking up any more, it is terrifying to face your own mortality.

However, through this whole thing you have been there to provide support and hope, all I relay can say is that it has meant more than you can ever know. I plan on beating this thing and I plan to fence again. Thank you all and I plan on fencing in Dallas at the qualifiers and practicing law again. That is the weird part, my mind works perfectly fine and I feel terrific, I just talk weird so people treat me like an idiot.

Thank you all
Greybeard]]> Greybeard http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/an-open-note-to-my-friends-7259/ http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-such-a-baby-7238/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:39:41 GMT I know i have been a whiny baby. But now I have trouble driving so I am only driving around town. He!!, all three cars are in use so I can't get to one anyhow. I think I had a tia over the last couple of days and I was very weak on my right, Good thing I am left handed.

I want to volunteer, but with no car that is kind of difficult and I am scared stiff about scaring the boys. To quote Michael Corleone, "this is not what I wanted."

I don't want to have my head carved open again and I miss working. I have always worked and beat the odds somehow. Does this make any sense to you? I can't even do volunteer work because I need my car. I need more care than the boys do.

I want to fence so badly. Maybe I can this weekend]]> Greybeard http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/greybeard-9752/i-am-such-a-baby-7238/