http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/superscribe-3778/ en Sat, 21 Nov 2009 20:02:42 GMT Tue, 17 Nov 2009 20:37:49 GMT http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss vBlogetin craig@fencing.net craig@fencing.net http://www.fencing.net/forums/blogs/superscribe-3778/verily-it-doth-feel-good-to-be-a-gangster-7285/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 20:37:49 GMT Funny, how fickle coaches can be. Last saturday, there was a local tournament. The week leading up to the tournament, he said i should relax. Use the tournament as a way to practice the drills i learned. Fence loose. Work on form. Work on clarity of mind. Then we get to the tournament. He takes one look a around at the competitors, and tells me I need to get my act together and fence to win.

lol.

These kinds of mind games are quite confusing to me. I still don't know why he had the change in mindset. Maybe it was a mental exercise. Maybe he just got up on the wrong side of bed. Maybe it was to prove a point to someone else. Something about political games and broken english made the situation too difficult for me to comprehend, so i just decided to fence my butt off. I tried to remember the things that prevented me from success, and to go through a launch sequence before every touch. Elbow in.. check. Close up the stance... check. Point up hand down... check. Beyond that, however, I did what i needed to do to win. Contort? Yell? Flick ugly? Use strength over finesse? CHECK.

It was an A rated tourney, but it did not feel good to win. The situation was funny to me, but it was not necassarily fun. Kind of a waste of time really. I learned little.

In life, there are few things we really need to do. The more you begin to say to yourself i "CHOSE" to do something instead of i "HAVE" to do something, the more accountable you are to your actions. Using "chose" instead of "have" is more accurate, and can be transforming. We have to take responsibility for our actions.

When i say we, I think i mean adults.

In most cases, I try to take responsibility, and own my actions and their results. I didn't feel like i owned my actions during the tournament. Maybe that's okay, because i have a coach. Maybe that's not okay, and i need to sit down and talk with my coach.



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