Rant warning.

I am NOT looking forward to the Summer Nationals. I've worked hard all year in preparation for this and now I do not want to go.

My husband has suggested vitamins. I bought and ate a small bag of M&Ms yesterday. [That didn't help although I note that I did feel a little better temporarily.]

Part of the problem is work-related. Unless I'm given a time machine or a teleportation device, I am NOT going to be able to meet the July deadlines set at work by upper management.

I am thinking/obsessing about work while fencing and thinking about fencing while working and this is, imho, going to bite my arse at the Summer Nationals. Attitude is important.

If I were more experienced, less impatient, a more skilled fencer, etc., etc., my mental attitude heading out would not be as critical as it is at this stage.

I'm sunk. I normally have a strong work ethic but lately, I've dropped one hell of a lot of balls and I don't want to juggle any more. I just want to crawl into some dark cave with a nice, cozy spot, curl up, and sleep for a while.

Maybe I should try more M&Ms. It might not help, but at least I won't be as miserable while I'm feeling miserable.